What do you do when things that aren't supposed to get in the way of your relationship with God start to? Like, not just petty material things, but people you love? People who help make your life what it is. People who should matter. What happens when you're so wrapped up in thinking you're in pursuit of God and His plan, but in reality you're doing nothing but running around the same circle over and over--just to be brought back to square one.

What do you do? When everything that once gave my life meaning becomes nothing but a hollow motion and where love and a true desire for Christ have now burnt out. How could I let myself get this way? I let stress and fear run my life and I only go through the motions when it's convenient. I need time to just focus solely on my Lord and Savior, without interruption from anything. I need to come back to what gave me life in the first place and really put my life on hold for some time. I feel as if I'm running through the fog and tripping a million times over at the same time. I need love. I need life. I need Christ. There is nothing I can say or do that will change that fact. The only thing that stands in my way of that is the fact that I can't get out of my own way. Save me from myself, Lord. Please. I need to see the dawn again.