So God and I had a long talk last night. For the first time in my life, I've spent a great deal of time being angry with Him. Even through the anger, I couldn't distance myself from Him. While I was so angry for my circumstances and that God chose to remain silent through all of this, like Job I would not curse the name of God. Everything got to be too much. I was losing sight of who I am in Christ. It got to the point where I felt a lot like I did before I accepted Jesus.

Thankfully we have a God who comes to us instead of us trying to please a perfect, Holy, uncreated being. That's what I love about the One True God--even when we feel like there is nothing that can make the darkness go away. I was lying in bed trying to sleep, half-heartedly talking to God when the entirety of the past two months came rushing back to me. I couldn't handle it. I felt God reassure me, and take on all that pain and hurt. This morning when I woke up, I actually had a day to look forward to. No more dreading, no more pain, no more regret, no more shame. When I was younger and going through severe depression, I always dreamed of "a day without rain."

Today was one of those days. Here's to many more. Everything is Yours, God. Who am I to even begin to think I can have dominion over this life? I am yours, now and forever. For anybody who is hurting or bitter about the situation that life has dealt them, go to the One who can put you on a path that is perfect. Will it be easy? Of course not. But you're never alone, no matter the circumstance. Never forget it.