Mi corazón le pertenece a la República Dominicana.

What do I do now? Since I've come home from the Dominican I've found life here isn't where I'm supposed to be. I suppose this could be the high I'm on from the trip, but at the same time, I know it isn't. This fire birthed inside will only grow in me. While life here may be difficult, I know that it isn't forever. There were so many things in me that needed to die, and what scared me the most was that I didn't know how to let go and and let God take care of it. While I was down in the DR, He did SO MUCH work in me in that respect.

I know that people here aren't going to fully understand everything that's happened to me over the past week or how God has used me and worked in me. But this is AMAZING! Yes, life here is going to be difficult, but it's not forever and I know I'm not finished with the Dominican Republic. I'm planning on going back next year, but hopefully more than once. If God wills it, I want to spend the summer with Esther and Tanis at the compound helping in any way that I can. Before that happens though, I need to do a lot here.

For quite some time I've felt a call to ministry. A few months ago, I could sense the door closing without an explanation. That really frustrated me. One night while I was doing my devotion and praying about my trip that was yet to happen, the Lord showed me Psalm 46:10. "Be still and know that I am God." Throughout everything that's happened since then, God has continued to use this short, simple verse to remind me of His control and love for us all. While working with children and at the pastor's conference in the Dominican, I could sense that call to ministry once again. It thrills me that God would use me in that way--but at the same time I need to ground myself in His word and pray about this so that I follow His perfect will for me. No matter what, I will wait upon the Lord and be content with my lot. With Him, how could I not be? He's taken me to a country that I never had a desire to visit and transformed who I was even MORE than when I gave my life up to Him. I don't want to be tomorrow where I am today. I want to walk further and further and further with Him until I finally get to Heaven and can continue singing my praises and love for Him, all that He is, and all that He's done for me.