Something in me has changed as of late. For the longest time I had a trust issue with Christ-and I fought anything and everything He'd try to do for me. It's hard to explain; it's like I'd manage to think He'd want one thing for me, which in reality was just the thing I wanted. I had all the answers, and I thought I understood it. I knew and believed it all to be true, but for some reason there was just this part of me that wouldn't let go and give up control. I always had some "rational" explanation to something according to my own interpretation.
I can't really explain how it happened. I thought I had this joy and redemption, but it occured to me I wasn't happy. I couldn't figure out why I didn't have this neverending joy and faith that all the people around me did. But, like anything, God heard and saw what was up. Even He can break down walls of iron to let His light shine through. I've truly had a change; the way I thought a week ago even really doesn't register with me now. He truly is amazing and the work that He's done in me is wonderful. Trust really isn't an issue for me anymore-if I just follow my own advice I give to others and just "go with it," He'll take care of me. Afterall, he is my dadday....well. DADDAY!
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you don't know me but I've been reading your blogs and i just wanted you to know that everything you have said gets to me. It makes me think more than ever. Thanks for taking your time to post your feelings. Feel free to check my blog sometime. It's not half as good as yours...
And so it begins...
*huge smile*
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